After Thanksgiving feelings

And here is is Wednesday again... Wow! This past week has flown by. One week ago, we had a snowstorm, it was beautiful. The office closed and it allowed me to have five wonderful days with the littles. Too bad my husband did not have the same time with them. He only had Wed & Thur off and had to work the weekend. Thanksgiving came with the flurry that is the Macy's day parade, the dog show, dinner and football. It was perfect. I helped my mom make dinner and hope that in the next few months or so I will be able to make a turkey dinner. That is my goal, to learn how to and to make Thanksgiving dinner. Then the hustle and bustle of getting my stuff together for Christmas happened. But before that, I had a doctor appointment. I went for an annual check-up and looked into different options for birth control. My husband and I have come to the realization that as much as we love the children we have and we would love to have more, it just is not a possibility for us. I am sad about this. I always wanted at least 5 children, my mom comes from a big family and I get that from them. So right now we are at the point of making a decision. It is a difficult one to make, because with some of these options, there is that finality of it all, and when I think about that, it makes me sad. I am trying hard to live in the moment and pull up my big girl panties and say... hey girl, you have reached 'advanced maternal age', and having a baby might not be good for anyone involved. I am almost ready for Christmas, I have to purchase 2-3 more gifts, 2 for middle little and one for little girl. Little girl is easy, we know what we are getting her, Middle little on the other hand... He's the tough one. My husband's gift has been in the works for months and I just can't wait to give it to him, I am almost completely finished with it. Our tree is up, our stockings are hung, all we have to do now is wait for Santa to arrive!