When I should be sleeping...

We've had some busy days between my last post and now. Family Christmas celebrations, my husband having a very hectic schedule, illness with Middle Little and Little Girl and here is is New Year's Eve. While everyone is sleeping, I am not, I was woken up by Little Girl about 4 hours ago and I cannot fall back to sleep. I am definitely not seeing the ball drop this New Year's Eve. But while they are sleeping, I am sitting here thinking about the past year, my triumphs, my failures and my heartbreaks. I do not do this every year, but as you know from my previous post, I have made a few resolutions. I am going to try my damnest to keep. I am wondering what 2014 will bring. The obvious are that Big is going to graduate and move on to high school... WOW! how fast those years have gone by. Middle Little will start elementary school and Little Girl will no doubt become potty trained and it will be official that I will have no more 'babies' in my house. This has become a sore spot with me. I love having babies around, if it were up to me we would have many more, ok, maybe not many, but at least 2 more. I love children, I always have, but while I say I love them, I honestly only love mine (and the children of my family and friends). Anywho, I went off on a rant there. Yesterday would have been my grandmother's birthday, and this year being the 10th anniversary of her death hit me with the reminicing bug. I miss her. I cannot believe that even 10 years later, it feels as though she just left me, the pain is still 'right there', that there are days when all I want to do is run to her house and have her tell me that everything is going to be ok. I have all of her and my grandfather's letters back and forth to each other during World War II and I am thinking of taking them and trying to make some sort of book out of them. I miss her and that is all there is to it. So I know I will be back soon, to post of my first book I received from my best friend. My first resolution. I am going to try to keep up to date with my workouts, my books and hopefully some funny stories of the littles. Have a Happy New Year!!